Work in progress
Recently I haven’t felt like myself. I can’t quite put my finger on it. Something about the balance in my life just seems off. I have had an interesting few years. We got married, I quit my job, Kyle got a new job, we moved to Houston, rented a house, built a house, got a new job, and then I blinked and we had lived in Houston for 4 years.
Kyle and I are always on the move and on the go. I feel like we rarely sit still. I’ve found that in those 4 years that maintaining balance within my marriage, work, family, and just within MYSELF has been a challenge. I’ve definitely had good seasons and bad seasons. This year I really wanted my word to be “GRACE”. I need a lot more of it in so many areas of my life. I need to extend more of it to the people in my life, to the people NOT in my life, and also to myself. That’s probably the hardest one if I’m being honest. It’s taken me a minute to realize that I am someone who expects a lot out of herself. I’ll always be that person that wants to be the best at what she does. I’ll always want to learn, and grow. However, I have realized that with that also comes a very high expectation and stress level that I put on myself to succeed. Again, in all areas of my life. Marriage, family, health, work, and most recently this blog.
The truth is, I don’t know where this blog is headed. I don’t know what the word “successful” in reference to the blog even means, or will mean to me in the future. I don’t know how to explain dot people why I started doing it. I don’t know where I want it to go. I don’t know who reads it. I don’t know if what I’m typing is even worth reading to anyone but the sweet people in my life just trying to support me. lol All I do know is, that in this time where I seem to be going through another phase where I’m just trying to
Keep the balance
this blog has been such a blessing for me and my head space over the last 9 months or so. Having somewhere to go, write, poor thought into, and dream goals about things I didn’t think I had dreams and goals to do. It’s really been good for me. The anxiety and stress is real though right now. And as I try to sort through it, while NOT LOSING SITE OF WHO I AM, I’ll try to just extend myself a little Grace and remember that I’m a continued work in progress. Happy Monday y’all!
